The Agony Of Fasting For A Day And What Elightenment It Brought Me

The Trigger

The clock was 6 minutes away from declaring the beginning of the next day, the day I had chosen to keep a fast. To set the record straight, I am not a religious person at all, I don’t visit temples or chant mantras. But desperate times call for desperate measures and when you are one of those few people who still hasn’t been placed as an intern, I call it desperate times. I know, what a nerd but it is what it is.

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I live in a hostel and the food they serve is pathetic and I am habitual to being half famished the whole day and the only day my belly isn’t grumbling is when I am full with chicken. So I thought, this will be a cakewalk for me, I am used to it. Turns out the certainty of not eating the whole day made me a lot more anxious than the fact that every day I used to go to sleep empty stomach.

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The Patience Test

I passed the first half of my day doing the normal chores and avoiding going to the mess. I searched on the internet the time of the sun set which would finally mean that I could eat. But the realization that I couldn’t eat chicken made me curse the time I decided to do this harrowing task.

All I could think about was fancy food and gourmets, fully knowing that I couldn’t eat anything except a ‘satvik’ home cooked meal. Even the movies I was watching weren’t kind enough to trim their “lunching” scenes.

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The Aftermath

As soon as the sun gave me the thumbs up I gobbled up 3 bananas, hoping maybe it would stop or least slow down the hunger games that were being held in my flat belly. Nothing. This made me cranky.

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I bought snacks for myself but with no intention of eating them and placed them in my friend’s custody, in case I break down and give in to my animalistic cravings.

God is witness to how I survived those 3 hours and as soon the next day technically began I tore open those packets of snacks.

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The Realization

Once the hunger pangs were over and I was full, I started thinking clearly. In that moment I realised that fasting is not for religious purposes but spiritual. God doesn’t care if you eat or not. Nobody does. It is just a stepping stone in gaining complete control over your senses and fighting temptation. Both of which are necessary in attaining nirvana.

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Food is important for our survival and our spiritual ancestors knew it. They observed fasts so that once a week or month there body could clean itself and they could learn to control their hunger.

Nothing is more powerful than a man who is in complete control of his body, a concept which is completely lost on our society. Temptations weaken a man and control strengthens him.

With this as my motto I decided, in future, to repeat this feat but not with all those religious rules like eating only home cooked meal or no non vegetarian food. I will do it to control my temptations and leash my demons.

As for the internship, yes, after 4 days I received the confirmation from a reputed company. What conspired it? I believe it’s my resume.

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